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    Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Sat Oct 29, 2016 4:56 am


    Time passed, and as if it was some cheesy sitcom or teen comedy, Lanai and Ujiyasu were under the same roof.  Even though in reality their age and the circumstance did make the whole thing serious and not a joke, there was still the fact that they were a single man and a single woman living under the same roof while the man's parents seemed a little to optimistic about the whole thing.  So much in fact that they treated Lanai as one of the family, going as far as to even refuse offers of current or future reimbursement from her if Lanai ever offered.  Ujiyasu did his best to keep Lanai comfortable, especially trying to make sure she was as mentally relaxed as he could at night.  He theorized that, as long as the nights didn't constantly devolve into some perpetual nightmare hell, the further away whatever event caused these nightmares got, the easier it would be to prevent them.  Again though, that was the trick.  Keeping her from having them in the first place so she can put some distance there.  Though truthfully, most of that was at night before bed.  So what did Ujiyasu do during the day?  Sadly the answer was a simple "nothing".

    It wouldn't be long before Lanai should notice a pattern.  Ujiyasu just lying around and relaxing around the house.  He never went out, whether it be for a job or to enjoy himself outside.  Admittedly he had a job and the owner of the shop was out of town for awhile.  Hell, Ujiyasu hadn't even planned on being back in Aria at this point.  Yet there was still something...off about it.  It was no secret by the way his parents reacted.  It wasn't anger at him being lazy, it was nothing but parental worry.  They tried to hide it from Lanai, but it was still obvious.  A week and a half passed, and this didn't change.  At an early dinner on this particular day the three sat around the table.  Ujiyasu's father was at work.  Dinner was just about wrapping up.  "Lanai, do you know about our little district's festival of the arts?"  Ujiyasu finished what he was chewing and then chuckled a bit.  "It's that time of year again isn't it?"  "Local businesses all help fund it.  It's full of all kinds of food, music, art, dancing, and just about everything else."  "It's a shame the old man couldn't make it.  He's still out of town."  Ujiyasu's mother turned to Lanai.  "Do they have a festival like that where you're from Lanai?"


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

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    During her say with Ujiyasu and his family, this were as well as they could be. Lanai slept decently the first night, waking up only two more times after her screaming fit. Luckily, every other time she woke it wasn't in a screaming fit. She tried letting Ujiyasu sleep every night, only waking him up once or twice throughout the week since she arrived. The night before, Lanai attempted to sleep in the guest room, only to wake up from a rather aggressive anxiety attack and run back to him. Lanai explained to Ujiyasu that she could not be alone right now and so they would continue to share his bedroom, even if it made his parents a little too excited for him. Lanai thought his parents were absolutely adorable.

    Throughout her stay, Lanai admitted she was jealous of Ujiyasu. She never had supportive parents. Most people told her she couldn't do anything she wanted to do. When she came to Aria, she wanted to publish a book and her family and friends all shot her down. She came anyway, only to be proven right, but because of that she couldn't return home to face the condescending "I told you so" stuff. The three also learned that Lanai talks badly about herself all the time. She insults her appearance, intelligence, and talent by saying she's unattractive, stupid, and is good at nothing. She's proven herself clumsy by helping in the kitchen and dropping two glasses and a plate since she arrived here.

    During dinner, like this one, Lanai was quiet always. She did not speak unless spoken to or asking to be excused. She's always very polite and clean, making sure to offer to do the dishes every night, though when there are a lot of glasses she asks if she can help in some other way. As dinner was wrapping up, Ujiyasu's Mother spoke up about a festival coming up. She kept silent until she was the one spoken to and then smiled sheepishly at the question, her cheeks a little flushed. "Well," she scratched lightly at her chin, "I don't remember any art festivals, but we did have one for Giorno Della Famiglia. It was the one time of year Mom and Dad took the family out to have fun and bond together."

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Sun Oct 30, 2016 9:57 am


    It was no secret how Lanai treated herself.  She had an immensely low self esteem, which was a dangerous thing in excess.  Ujiyasu himself hadn't thought of all the serious problems it could cause if it continued, but it certainly still didn't make sense to him.  She was sweet and pretty.  Why the low self esteem?  Of course her mentioning in passing a few times how unsupportive her parents were said at least a little.  When she mentioned that only at one very specific festival did Lanai get to bond with her parents, it made both Ujiyasu and his mother a little sad.  "I'm sure they loved you in their own way.  Maybe they were just bad at showing it."  While his mother tried to make Lanai feel better, Ujiyasu had a question that might do the opposite.  He had to ask though.  "You didn't get to have much in the way of fun as a kid, did you?"  Seriously, Lanai talking about herself...ever, it got really depressing really fast.  If that was really all she had to go buy, low-self esteem and loneliness, maybe she was due for a little bit of fun.  "What do you do to entertain yourself?  Do you have any hobbies?"  His mother lit up.  "I'm sure whatever she likes is wonderful, just like my son."  Subtle, very subtle. Ignoring his mother's obvious desires in the situation, he awaited Lanai's answer.


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

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    If there was one way to make Lanai feel awkward, it was telling her that her family cared for her. There was no way for her to believe that. Years of evidence proving the contrary tells her that they were annoyed by her existence. They had wanted a boy and an Arcanist at that; Lanai was neither. She lowered her head and shook it no. "I know they did not want me. They wanted a son and a powerful arcanist to carry on the family name and I'm the exact opposite." Lanai kept a soft smile on, but a single tear pushed out of the corner of her eye. She quickly wiped it away and pushed the talk on.

    Well, she was going to push the conversation on, but Ujiyasu brought up her childhood again. Lanai just sucked her lips in and shook her head at him to answer his question. She lowered her head in shame, embarrassed about it. "Hobbies..." she thought for a short moment and just shrugged. Ujiyasu's Mother made her smile a bit more. She knew what was going on here and found it so funny. Ujiyasu was a handsome man and Lanai knew it, but she only thought of him as a friend. "Nope." She mostly cleaned and cooked for work. She couldn't remember the last time she had any real fun. "What about you?"

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    At least to Ujiyasu's mother, that kind of thing was impossible. No parent could not love their daughter. "Yeah some are like that." Before she could speak, Ujiyasu spoke. It was rather matter of fact, much more than the kind though flawed words his mother would have said. "Doesn't make them right though." The conversation continued, Ujiyasu mostly remaining silent, but Lanai seemed to be a bit...what's the word. Honestly, it almost seemed like a word would have to be invented to describe just how much she puts herself down. It was actually that bad. She apparently didn't have any hobbies. Belittling herself apparently WAS her hobby. "I guess that makes two of us." He responded to Lanai's question. Ujiyasu's mother's face immediately darkened a bit. Ujiyasu then went to stand up. He had been thinking about something. "Then what say you we go out and have some fun then?" His mother's face lit up like a light again. He had intended on not going out this year, but Lanai was just too depressing. She needed to lighten up and maybe going out with the sole intent of having some fun would help. "It isn't that late, still plenty of festival left." Ujiyasu then went to go grab his kimono. Regardless of what Lanai would say, he'd just respond. "I'll meet you in the living room." She was going to have some fun and like it.


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    Ujiyasu's comment about his parents being wrong caught her attention. She stared curiously at him for a moment and then the conversation went on without another word on that subject. There was something that she and him had in common: no hobbies. She had a feeling that Ujiyasu was more lazy than anything else. She just worked a lot, but she wouldn't mention that to him now. Lanai did not notice his mother's face darkening. When Ujiyasu stood up, Lanai tilted her head at his question. "Wait, what?" she asked as she stood up. He explained about the festival and Lanai knew where this was going. "U-Um... Wa-Wait..." Lanai called out to him, but he went off and said to meet him in the livingroom, "Oh... O-Okay." Lanai glanced worriedly back toward Ujiyasu's Mother and then went to the living room to wait. She wasn't sure she was ready to go out yet, but didn't seem to have a choice.

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    Post by Snops on Thu Nov 03, 2016 4:16 am


    Who knew if it would help, but maybe reacquainting Lanai with the world's less harsh aspects would help her.  There certainly wasn't any reason, far as he could tell, for a girl like her to look down on herself.  Sadly people who were bad people never looked down on themselves, but people who weren't often did.  She was sweet, and didn't seem like someone who previously committed murder, so odds were it was unfounded.  Upon grabbing his Kimono he walked back out to the living room to find Lanai waiting there as he asked.  She definitely seemed uneasy.  "Still nervous huh?  You might not still be in peak form, but you look good.  You'll fit right in."  He looked towards the front door.  "Humor me at least?  If you still feel too shaken after an hour, we can come back.  If that happens we'll find something else to do."  Ujiyasu turned back to her.  He didn't want to force her, that would kill the point.  Yet he hoped she'd be able to at least try.  If she somehow couldn't, it wouldn't be a big deal.  If she couldn't though, it'd mean her problems ran far faaar deeper than he could imagine.  "I'll be with you the whole time, so what do you say?  It's your choice."  If she really did say no, he'd probably just talk to her.  That dinner was really the most he had REALLY talked to her since the first night.  Usually didn't have much he could think of to say.


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    Lanai fell into deep thought while contemplating this decision. Right now, the outside world seemed so far away. The idea of being around large groups of people wasn't as terrifying as you'd think, especially after her incident. Lanai was more worried a about seeing people she knew. Explaining why she had been gone for so long wasn't on her top priority. "Part of me wants to say no, but that part of me fears something that may not even occur..." Lanai kept her head lowered and sighed, "I don't want to run into anyone I know and explain my situation, or why I'm living with a man I just met. Well, staying with you at least... I don't think it can be considered living here yet..." Lanai sighed again and then perked herself up. She gave a big smile and hurried to his side. "I'll do it then! Let's go!" Lanai curled her arm around his and followed his lead. "So do you go to this festival every year, Ujiyasu?"

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    Lanai seemed to be more at conflict than just not wanting to go out. Part of her didn't want to go, only part of her though apparently. She didn't want to run into anyone she knew. Oh, that actually made a lot more sense. "As far as they know, you've only stayed with me a few days, and only because my mother insisted." That really was pretty damned close to the truth. His mother wouldn't allow her to go out on the street. "I'm sure someone found the shape your place was in and that man disappeared. If need be, we can make it sound good." Suddenly though, and she perked up. Something told him it wasn't what he said that did it. Maybe she was just accepted that he wouldn't force her to stay out if things got too uncomfortable. He was a little surprised when she ran over and wrapped her arm around his. He shrugged and lead her on. He was used to girls randomly clinging, though this may be one of the first times he didn't politely nudge them off. Thus, he lead her out the door. The festival was up the street a ways, but the sound of people was evident. "Sorta. I actually was probably going to sit out this year, but as you know, plans changed a bit. I still remember back when..." He stopped suddenly, and then quickly chuckled. "So do you like any kinds of art? Painting? Writing? Music? Drama? I know there are always some excellent dancers every year." As they closed in the sounds became even louder. Some booths and stalls were coming into view up ahead. "We could just check everything. Plenty of time, we can call it a night whenever we want." Even as they approached the edge, the kind of festival this was was evident. The first booth had a plethora of beautiful paintings and drawings made by the people manning the stalls. Some had prices on them, indicating they were for sale. "What shall we look at first?"


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    Lanai curled her arm around his in a friendly way. There was no extra intent behind it. She was a little excited to get out of the house and wanted to make the most of it. She also didn't know if she'd feel comfortable too far from him, so this was her way of feeling safer. As they walked, Lanai listened to the sounds as things got louder. It made her nervous, which became evident when her grip on Ujiyasu tightened only slightly. Lanai noticed that he cut himself off and looked suspiciously at him. Her curiosity allowed her to ignore the incoming crowds. "You already know I like to write, Ujiyasu." she said and tilted her head to look up at him as they walked, "As you said, we have time. We could check everything until we're sick of it, so I'll follow your lead. However, you were going to say something... You said 'I still remember back when...' and then stopped... Continue? It'd be nice to hear a story from you, not just your over excited Mom, even if her stories of your childhood days are funny."

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    Yes she did say in the past she liked to write, but his comment was doubling as a list of potential options. She didn't seem to have a preference, so looked like they'd just wander and look at things as they went. Yet when he dropped off the story, she didn't seem to happy. She wanted him to continue on with it. "It wasn't anything important. Just when I came here when I was younger." He looked around. "Everything seemed a lot bigger back then. A lot more wonder to it too." Really what he had remembered different, and quite specific. Still, he had no intent on bringing it up now. He wasn't lying though. Being young, even magic had a lot more wonder to it. To some people, it even ends up becoming mundane. It was a shame really. "Look." He pointed to some arcanists on a small stage, literally juggling fire and electricity. "Electricity too. Looks like they've upped their game." He watched for a bit before finally continuing. "A few years back I watched this with a friend. Some jerk in the audience decided to throw a cabbage at the performers, they ended up accidentally lobbing the fire straight at us. Had to push my friend out of the way, she was right in it's path. Skimmed past my hair and gave me a bald spot on my left side. I actually wore my hat on a tilt for 3 months until it grew back enough. I don't really worry about my appearance, but it looked really bad." He laughed a little. "People's faces whenever the hat got knocked off were pretty funny looking back on it." Looking back, one of the performers began to breath lightning. The other was breathing fire, but that doable even without magic. The stream exploded into an array of colors at the end. All of the colors of the rainbow, like a mini-firework. "Thankfully after what happened, no one's been stupid enough to interrupt the performance since."


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    Lanai sighed and uncurled her arm from his, crossing them under her bust. She could tell he switched his story up. He was always avoiding telling her things when she was so open. After a while, that treatment gets offensive. Not only has he seen her entire body, but she's been more than honest. It was unfair to her. She watched the crowds in silence until he pointed out a specific performance. Two skilled arcanists were juggling fire and electricity. The sight pushed an awestruck smile onto her lips. When he began telling his story, Lanai raised an eyebrow at him. She actually wondered if it were true. When he got to the part about the bald spot, she sucked her lips in to hold back a laugh. There was no way someone could make that up. She giggled through her nose, trying not to, but not being able to hold it back. "Maybe it's because of that." Lanai pointed to a sign above the crowd near the stage. It read 'Do not throw anything at performers!'. "Glad you finally told me something about you."

    Lanai turned toward him and put her hands behind her back. She leaned forward and looked curiously at him, her lips pursed and eyes narrowed playfully. After a moment, she went back to normal. "So where are we going now? Anything in particular you want to see? Maybe something you want to revisit from the other years you attended this festival? We've eaten, so we don't need any food."

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    When he went and told what was effectively his cover story, she seemed to detach herself from him. She went silent for awhile, but the story about when he got torched seemed to perk her back up. She even pointed out the sign. "It probably would have been helpful to have had that way back then now wouldn't it?" That even made him laugh again. Though her tone of voice next implied that she knew he was hiding something. He scratched the back of his head. "Normally I don't have much to say." It's true, on a day to day basis he was pretty quiet. She seemed to be analyzing him a bit. Still afterwards, she perked back up and asked where to next. "Then let's go see some dancers." He went to lead her in the direction that dancing acts tended to be. He always liked them. The graceful controlled movement was relaxing to watch. He was silent for a bit, small talk not being a strong suit, when suddenly an arm wrapped around his. He turned his head to see it wasn't Lanai's. "Heeeey Ujiyasu~" He recognized that voice. "Nice to see you again~" He pulled his arm out from her grip. "I appreciate the interest, but I'm still not interested." The girl seemed to pout, but after his apology and some explanations that he just didn't want to, she went off. In fact, a lot of girls, whether or not they recognized him, seemed to hit on him. He still didn't give any of them the time of day, simply politely turning them down. Not once did he show much interest. "It's like this every year. It gets exhausting. Say, you're a pretty girl, do guys try to flirt with you a lot?" It was a little strange. Girls with all kinds of different features went to flirt with them. He was bound to be attracted to one or some of them, but he just kept turning them down. Still, as tiring as they were, there were some people he'd rather not run into. It'd make explaining to Lanai a lot harder, or rather she'd then know what kind of thing he was avoiding. Still, he tended to run into them every year.


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    Ujiyasu began to lead her toward the dancers when a noise grated on Lanai's ears. The way some women said his name, their intentions were obvious. Each time, Lanai just looked off. The women ignored the fact that she was there anyway, which was expected and something she was used to. She always seemed to be invisible to other women. When he rejected them, she always returned to his side and asked if they could continue on. It was merely an annoyance for Lanai because they interrupted their conversation or even just a silent walk. "Every year?" Lanai giggled and shook her head, "That sucks." Each time he complimented her, Lanai was taken aback. She blushed lightly and glanced away. His question threw her off too, so all she did was shake her head no. "I don't get flirt with really at all... I don't think I'm that attractive either, so that's probably why. You don't have to compliment me, ya know?" Lanai said with a small smile, "I know what I am, so no need to be nice."

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    Lanai seemed to just passively accept it whenever they got interrupted.  Really, she would have been less ignorable had she not removed her arm from his, but it was still generally rude.  The volume of girls trying to get with him was surprisingly only SLIGHTLY lower than usual.  Most of the girls who would see him with Lanai and back off also didn't have the courage to walk up to him in the first place.  "Every year.  Really every month.  If some forward girl catches me they usually go to flirt.  Rejection doesn't seem to deter them either."  That's when he went to ask Lanai about if she got flirted with.  Her response was actually painful.  She basically said that she "wasn't that attractive."  Okay she's said some things that were wrong, but that was more than wrong.  The long hair, the crystal clear blue eyes, and that body.  Ujiyasu cleared his throat at that moment.  "You've obviously never looked in a mirror if you think that.  Well that or maybe someone swapped yours with a fun house mirror."  Ujiyasu stopped for a moment, looking around to gain his bearings, and then turned.  The dancers were this way.  "That wasn't me being nice.  You really are pretty."  Actually he's seen girls who would kill to look like her, literally.  She wasn't a super model of course, but those girls also weren't right in the head.  "I want you to try something.  I need you to say one positive thing about yourself.  And no, you can't say that there isn't anything.  That isn't an acceptable answer.  Think.  What is one thing you like about yourself?  Something good."


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

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    "I'd be lying if I said I wasn't jealous. Be glad that you have people who want you." Lanai replied in a kind and casual tone. The conversation moved on to her and she quite bluntly stated she knew she wasn't attractive. She had gotten used to the feeling so it didn't bother her that much. It did a bit, but not much. Lanai stared intensely at Ujiyasu when he mentioned a fun house mirror and continued to stare at him when he called her pretty. She was unreadable in that moment. Her eyes showed nothing and her body language didn't either. She stayed silent and then looked away until he spoke up again. "Try what?" she asked and he explained. Lanai stared at him again and then looked away. From that moment on, she was silent. The two made it to the dancers and Lanai watched them, though her mind was elsewhere. She didn't seem to take in any of the performance. The first dance was finished and Lanai just turned to Ujiyasu and stared at him. "I'm not dead." was the answer she gave.

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Fri Nov 04, 2016 5:41 am


    Apparently Lanai was a little jealous. He was pretty sure that she wasn't interested in him, so it seemed a little strange. Granted he was used to people who wanted him being very vocal about it, annoyingly so. Yet that insistence that she wasn't attractive was really...well, incorrect. She seemed to go silent, but at least paid attention as he asked her to do something. She didn't respond past that though. Silence. "Just think on it." He said and patted her back a bit. They finally made it to the dancers and Ujiyasu took in the sight. It wasn't just female dancers, there were male ones too. The elegance of a professional dance was hard to beat. Yet Lanai's head was definitely still elsewhere. Finally the first dance ended, and as he clapped he suddenly heard Lanai. "I'm not dead." That's it? Well he couldn't be too upset, her saying that means she would rather be alive. "You like being alive. Remember that feeling." Ujiyasu stopped and went silent for a moment himself, thinking about something. If only... He thought to himself, staring into the distance for a moment. Still, before he let that thought take too much root in his head he shook it off. The next act began. "Would you look at that." This was even more impressive than the first one. He didn't get long before he had to ask. "You okay? I didn't mean to kill the mood."


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Serenity on Fri Nov 04, 2016 6:14 am



    Lanai wasn't jealous of the women. She didn't care about that. She was jealous that people liked him and flirted with him all the time. She never got that kind of attention, but thought it would be something nice. Her answer to his question probably wasn't what he was looking for. It was the only half-assed answer she could really think of since nothing else made sense. And when she gave that answer, she wasn't sure whether she actually meant it. He told her to remember the feeling. What feeling? She felt nothing, even her small bits of happiness faltered with the silence. They watched the next performance and then Ujiyasu spoke up. Lanai looked up to him and crossed her arms along her chest. "What do you keep dazing out about? I may not know you that well, but I can tell when you're deep in your own thoughts." Lanai asked, her head tilted curiously and waited for his answer.

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Fri Nov 04, 2016 6:38 am


    Lanai's mood might have been crushed. Very few people had the capability of becoming sadder when complimented, and Lanai must have been one of them. It was increasingly clear she was miserable. Still, she unfortunately kept picking up on things Ujiyasu would rather remain buried. "It's nothing. Well, not nothing but." He scratched his chin a bit, thinking. "Just the past. Years ago. Three...or maybe four. I can't remember exactly. Tonight you've just been reminding me of someone." She wasn't reminding him of them directly, but rather some of the general events are bringing back memories. "Maybe it's not you...just today in general. Hard to say, I've been trying not to think about it." It was in the past, it didn't really hurt anymore to think about. Still, he preferred not look back on it because even if it didn't hurt, it wasn't exactly pleasant. Even if he didn't really acknowledge it himself, his lack of drive probably all stemmed back to that day. "Sarah was her name. She was my girlfriend. Let's just leave it at that." Though considering the past tense, he should probably clarify something. "It's not a bad thing to remind me of her mind you. Not like the last time I saw her we were on bad terms, not like we were ever on bad terms." He cut if off there. He really did not want to talk about this. "Let's change the subject. You said you like to write right? Should we go find some writing supplies? Never hurts to stock up."


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Serenity on Fri Nov 04, 2016 6:49 am



    Ujiyasu was keeping everything vague. It only made Lanai more frustrated and curious about him. She kept staring at him, her eyes pushing him to keep talking. She had yet to be satisfied by his story. And then he mentioned her name. Sarah. Her face softened as she listened to his broken story. Lanai couldn't read anything about what he said. He gave off no hints as to whether the woman cheated on him or just vanished into thin air. For all Lanai knew, the chick melted. It was becoming clearer to Lanai that he wasn't going to open up to her. The moment he said to change the subject, she sighed and shrugged. "No. It's fine. There is no need." she turned away from the performance and began walking off, "Let's just go back to your home. I am not enjoying the festival like I thought I would."

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Fri Nov 04, 2016 7:42 am


    Lanai didn't understand. The thing was, he didn't notice it when it happened earlier. Yet now there was a pattern. Whenever he would withhold information, she'd get notably upset. She'd just go silent or something. Here it was happening a second time, and it probably wasn't just a coincidence. Still what could he say, he didn't WANT to think about it. "If that's what you want." From there, they began to walk home silently. Ujiyasu really didn't know what to say. This was something Lanai just didn't understand. It wasn't a matter of trust or not wanting to open up to her. Him even saying that name, for the first time in YEARS, was opening up. Maybe he should have explained that it had nothing to do with her, he just didn't want to think about it, but he wasn't thinking along those lines. Uncharacteristically he didn't try to improve the situation, because despite not really showing it well, he wasn't exactly happy right now. Even if he himself didn't realize it. It was almost a subtle cry for help really. They got halfway back when Ujiyasu snapped out of it, at least partially. He himself was still not REALLY aware of the issue, or rather how deep it ran. Still. He remained silent until they got all the way home. Once there, he spoke. "Just so you know. That was the first time I said her name in 3 or 4 years. I'll be right back." With that he just walked back out of the house. He only went back so he could leave her for a few minutes without her getting freaked out. "What happened?" As Ujiyasu left the room, his mother entered. "Her name? Wait, he couldn't have meant...Sarah?"


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Serenity on Fri Nov 04, 2016 7:51 am



    Lanai stepped into the house with the continued silence. She walked over to the couch, stopping only for a moment when Ujiyasu explained an interesting part of himself. She didn't feel guilty about her silence, even with him saying more. She watched him walk out and then sat on the couch as his mother entered the room. "Yeah. He mentioned her while we were out." Lanai said softly, her attention in two different places at once, "It's obviously a sore spot; I probably shouldn't have poked at it, but..." Lanai sighed and shook her head, "Nevermind. It's not like either of you would understand it." Lanai stood up from the couch and began walking toward the stairs, "I'm gonna find a hotel to stay at. I don't think I can stay here, not anymore, but I do thank you for opening your home to me. It was fun."

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Fri Nov 04, 2016 8:18 am


    Lanai explained briefly what happened, and then immediately went on to say they wouldn't understand it. "I don't know how much you actually understand either." His mother said bluntly. She was incredibly sweet, but she wasn't going to listen to ANOTHER person refuse to say something, then continue to act with the unspoken emotions in mind. "He mentioned Sarah's name. I don't know how you managed that, he won't even indirectly refer to her to me. It's as if he is trying to forget she ever existed." She put her hands on her hips. "You obviously got my son to open up, so you aren't leaving this room until you explain to me why you have to leave." His mother sighed and looked out the window. That authoritative air dissipating. "I know you have your problems...but Ujiyasu does too. I don't know what's going on...but I can't understand if you don't tell me." She sat down next to Lanai and actually slumped down. "I can't do anything if no one ever tells me anything." She had been trying all these years to get Ujiyasu to just talk to her, but he wouldn't. "I'm sorry...I know I'm not your mother. You don't have to tell me...I just don't know what to do anymore. Please just...understand. You must mean something to him. He told you even a little about Sarah...he won't tell me, his own mother, anything." At that moment Ujiyasu came back in with a bag of supplies. "I'm home." He knew something was up. He held up and placed a bag on Lanai's lap. "This is for you." With that he went off to the kitchen to grab something to snack on. In the bag, high quality (and expensive) writing supplies. He didn't know how else to try and cheer her up.


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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Serenity on Fri Nov 04, 2016 8:35 am



    And there was the air of a mama bear. Ujiyasu's Mother quickly spoke in a calm defense of her son. Lanai sat back down when his Mother did and listened to her. She felt bad for his Mother and a little bad for him. She couldn't entirely feel bad since she didn't know much about this Sarah, but it was still there. "When Ujiyasu found m-..." Lanai's head snapped over to look at Ujiyasu as he came back into the house. Lanai stared sadly at him, but couldn't keep eye contact for long. She quickly looked away in embarrassment and shame. When the bag was set in her lap, she blinked and looked inside. She was surprised to see quite a few high quality pens and hardcover notebooks she could write with.

    Lanai set the bag on the coffee table and stood up to face Ujiyasu. "Look. I'm sorry I upset you." she spoke up firmly, her tone stronger than normal, "I understand that you have things you don’t want to talk about, things that may even hurt to merely cross your mind – it’s something I can relate to more than you can probably even fathom – however, you’re not the one with no home, no job, no money, no friends, no family, and stuck in a house full of strangers – no matter how kind. Every time I try to get to know you, you change the subject or avoid telling me in some other way. Either you’re hiding so much from me that I cannot feel comfortable living here, or Sarah was such a huge part of you that any attempt at getting to know you is going to be drowned out by the fact that you’re not over her.”

    Lanai then turned to his Mother and sighed, speaking again before he had a single chance to utter a word. "When your son found me in the woods I was butt naked, dirty, in pain, and scared out of my mind because I had just been raped and left in the dark by two men I thought I could trust with my life." Lanai still spoke bluntly (though there was a bit of a misspeak there) and then shrugged like it was nothing, "There, that's my secret. It's not all of it, but it's what I have the courage to say right now because the res-..." Lanai froze and took a deep breath before speaking again, "I can't talk about it yet... You have all been kind to me, opened your home, and fed me, but..." Lanai turned to Ujiyasu, "That does not make up for the fact that I am still surrounded by people I don't know in probably the worst time of my fucking life!" Lanai took a deep breath and looked to the floor, trying to not cry.

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    Re: Running on Idle [Closed]

    Post by Snops on Fri Nov 04, 2016 9:13 am


    When Ujiyasu got back she was about to say something.  Before he could even leave the room she began to apologize.  Then though she started going off on him about how he didn't tell her anything.  Before he was even allowed to speak she then explained what he had been asking about all this time.  So that's what happened.  She wasn't just raped, she was raped by people she trusted.  She was holding back tears.  Though seriously, what did she want him to say?  Literally the only time he actually held anything back, at least tonight, was whenever he thought about Sarah.  He just wasn't very talkative.  "Yes I did avoid talking about her."  He responded.  "The only time Sarah even came to mind was tonight.  The other times, I just...don't know what to really say about myself.  That time watching the performing arcanists, that I enjoy watching professional dancers, I thought that was something.  Though you did it too, I kept trying to get to know you and you kept dodging it.  It's hard to know anything about your life when all of my questions were met with "I can't talk about it.""  He went silent for a moment.  "Still...you opened up about that.  It's only fair I return the favor then.  I can't tell you what happened to her Lanai.  Because I don't know what happened to her.  Just woke up one morning, and she was gone.  No one, not even her family, knew what happened.  It's hard to talk about someone you care about when you don't even know what happened to them.  When they're missing, and possibly dead.  I looked and couldn't find her.  After awhile, the tears dry up.  I was going to propose to her, and when years passed with no sign of what happened...I just wanted to forget.  That's...all there is to it."

    Ujiyasu's mother couldn't even open her mouth.  Lanai had, yet again, gotten him to talk about something he hadn't in 4 years.  She looked like a wizard to his mother right now.  "I know it isn't as bad as being raped.  And I know that it means nothing to you, but that doesn't change the fact that it means something to me.  And if you think that there's more I'm not telling you than that, you're mistaken.  Besides watching the gentle water of a river or dancers, I have no hobbies.  I don't have dreams or aspirations I haven't told you.  All I am doing is trying my hardest to be happy.  I'm sorry, I know that isn't the answer you were looking for."  He himself still didn't understand.  He was more hung up on Sarah than he realized, and it was getting in the way of him being able to be truly happy.  It killed his drive, it killed all aspiration, all it did was hold him back.  But even him being able to say this much now, it would take a lot more to truly make him understand.  "I'm sorry that I make you uncomfortable." At first he was a little annoyed and his voice showed it, but a few sentences in, when he mentioned he didn't know what to say about himself, it transitioned into the first time she had probably ever heard him sound sad. "I'm bad at these kinds of things."


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